November 17th, 2006


I Wasn't Ignoring You!

sahlah wrote:

On Nov. 15th, 2006 11:31 am (local)
You know I've been wanting to ask you something. Years ago when I packed them in there wasn't a tool like the patch. You just had to steel yourself to the big day and that was that. I was always told smoking (like other addictions) has two components. A physical addiction and a psychological one. The later being the really hard one to deal with. 

Yes, you are right, most addictions do have at least two. I know smoking certainly does! I've tried to quit colde turkey too! Longest I made was about 2 weeks before I caved in.

It seems to me that since you have a patch to help work off the physical addiction - you have really been dealing with the psychological component. So I say - double hats off to you. Breaking the triggers for smoking is a bitch.

Well I haven't really used the patch since the last one I put on my wrist caused such a drastic allergic reaction. I mean, I've got BLISTERS and all(!) That was what - the 13th?!? Put myself on a course of neosporin and a bandage, cuz the little fucker still itches....Like CRAZY!

When do you finish the course of the patch? You are gonna feel so good... Pat yourself on the back.

I may already be finished with the dang patch! (see above) If you do the entire program - It takes about seven or eight weeks, I think. Feeling better every day! Consider me patted!

Thanks for asking!

I am now on the morning of my 33rd day as a nonsmoker!

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Met With the Respiratory Technician Thursday

When I called her on last Friday - She was gonna send me one out that day. Got a package from them  But I was damned if I could figure out how to torture myself with it. Here's why:

What those goobers in her warehouse had sent me was a strap rig for some kinda mask. Not a chinstrap as requested. Of course I didn't find this out until I made an appointment to see Stacy this past Tuesday. This is not really a convenient thing to do. But she's got a great sense of humor and is fun to talk to. It don't hurt that she ain't too hard on the eyes either(!)

She gets me a chinstrap and says, "While I'm there why doesn't she go ahead and give me the "Darth Vader" mask, as well. "Just so you've got all the options, Tom" Girlfriend, you musta been readin' my mind!

We chat for a little while after that, and she tells me she's not happy where she is now, and thinks she wants to get out of medical all together. Seems management is under the impression she's losing her apathy for her patients. I ask her if she thinks she is losing it. She smiles and admits, "Yeah, I might be." I tell it might indeed be time for her to bail.

And then it is time for me to bail. I grab my new gear and beat a hasty retreat. Drive back out to Katy to the Park and Ride to catch the bus to downtown Houston. Most days I'd rather take a beating that drive into work!

As I'm walking up to the bus that is parked at the stop, it starts to pull away! WTF!! I yell and wave my arms and the driver stops. Miracles never cease! Uneventful afternoon at the office. Only one uselEss meeting...Honestly I get out of most of them. But this one we are Strongly urged to attend. Dunno why. There's nothing new learned in it that I hadn't already got off the intranet. Two wasted hours...

I bail out of the office on time for a change. On my way out of the office, The Queen calls. The Cool One has not left with the rest of his companions for Boot Camp! In fact he's at the house! The recruiter had screwed up and not administered one of the tests required for his "A" school. They only offer this test on Wednesdays, *Whatever, dude* So he will not be going to Boot Camp until 5th January! And boy! Is he pissed! Almost lost his signing bonus due to this goofball of a recruiter. She's about turning somersaults! We discuss a few other things and then ring off, and I head off to catch the bus. Uneventful ride home.

Once I get there, I discover I'm just hang dawg beat!

About 8:30 or 9:00 I decide to hit the bed. I really need a good nights sleep, so I decide to try the full mask thing and fool with the chinstrap after I get caught up with my downtime (sleep) a little more. Fill up the humidifier reservoir and hook the thing up.

It is a Fisher & Paykel Flexifit 431. Hmm. It's BIG. I get the thing hooked up and on. Turn the air on. Of course, it takes a little while to get the thing fitting right and relatively comfortably.

I read for a while with it on. It is a little hard to get used to.

I finally decide I'm tired enough and turn off the light. It's about 10:00 PM, I think.

Almost two hours later. Despite being really tired. And trying really hard. I haven't been able to get to sleep, yet. Effing midnight...Again...Turn the machine off, get my ass outta bed. change back to my old mask and get the chin strap out. Put the strap on. Then the mask. I bet I'm out in less than 15 minutes. Shit!

Wake up at four something. I don't know why, but I've been doing this a lot lately, even when using the CPAP. Take the mask off and turn the unit off. Shut my eyes for a little while longer. Wait until quarter of five, get up and in the shower.

My night is ovah...

I don't think the FLEXIFIT is going to do it for me. It's just not comfortable enough for me. Feels like a torture device on my face.

I'll continue to do lord_keepers method of training myself to keep my mouth shut. The new chinstrap I've got should help with that. I believe I am making progress...

Cross posted at sleep_disorders