March 1st, 2009


Spiritually Speaking

...Which is...Not really an easy thing for me to do

Lately I feel adrift. For reasons I won't go into here (at least right now) I cannot or will not go back to a christian church or doctrine.

Was looking through a few friend's pages, and I see some of you are either practicing Zen Buddhists or at the very least meditating. this might help me some if I were to take it seriously.

Thought about meditation on and off for over... ahhh well. Let's just say it has been a long time.

I picked up a few podcasts that iTunes that seem tuned for beginners. Haven't listened to any of them yety. Just wondering if y'all listen to any of these...Or something else.

Daily Buddhism - Which despite the title seems to be a weekly 'cast.

Learn to Meditate - Meditation Podcast - There are 35 lessons plus a video intro - which I'll be watching in a bit. These folks started this in 2006.

Living Buddhism - Audio - This is a series of four 'casts each approximately an hour in duration, apparently geared towards the western mindset...

The Meditation Podcast Learn to or continue your meditation - Looks like the last update was in 2007, at least from the listing in iTunes says.

Zen is Stupid "How we got started with zen ie a beginner's guide to what not to do. - Last 'cast was on 22 Feb. 98 'casts so far.

Zencast A weekly podcast of inspiring buddhist dharma talks for all people.

Zencast v.2.5 Looks to be some music mixes of somekind... We'll see about this one...

Any way any of y'all have experience with these or others? What others...Just need something for beginners I think.

A Few

The Twits...Oh! Erm...That is, Tweets of TexasT's

  • 22:21 @sereneorange Thanks! Been looking at some of these lately. I'll be interested to know what you think when you get yours. #
  • 22:22 @stevenjayl I think he was older than that! #
  • 22:25 @sereneorange Whad ya get on the netbook? 1GB ram? SSD or HDD for storage? #
  • 22:26 @sereneorange Whhoooops...never mind...It was in your reply...Dammit I hate when I do that... #
  • 08:02 @ginatrapani Added you to my contact list on flickr. hope you don't mind. #
  • 16:33 @baldheretic And this is a backpacking trip? Dunno 'bout you, but I canNOT go anywhere without the CPAP... #
  • 16:40 @baldheretic I'm behind all that, but still,I ain't in my teens anymore.I reckon with practice i could pare it down to a good sized backpack #
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Well I'm a Dirty Rotten Backslidin' Weakling...

I have been slipping back into an old behavior for the last week or so. It is really easy to do when other folk that live with you are still doing said behavior that one needs to give up. Can't blame the other person. I had this one whipped. Or I thought I had.

Kicking myself in the ass for it too. I can feel the ill effects from it too. Why can't I stop? I don't really enjoy it. Or that's what I keep telling myself. Haven't gone full blown back to it. Just at night. And just one or two. But I can see where this is leading if I don't put a stop to it.

Boredom is a trigger. As is alcohol. So I need to give those up. Well at least the boredom...*heh*

So tomorrow I'll be going to get some of THAT gum or something.

Really disappointed in myself. I tried not to make too big of a deal about the fact that I gave it up. Maybe I should. And I was really feeling better too. That the whole SUCK part of this. And I can feel (Yes, already) the negative effect it has on me.

I don't really need to mention what habit this is either...Do I??