All in all a very pleasant way to spend an afternoon.
I might head on out for a bit tonight, but I haven’t really decided yet.
Grateful? Fuck yes!
Grateful for relatively good health this year for most of the folks I know (and me). Thankful I have gotten a pretty good grip on sanity before I turned into some sort of nocturnal nutcase. I like sleeping at night. And waking up early in the morning**. I believe I have discussed this in these pages before.
It seems consistency can be a wonderful thing. Who knew?
At any rate, I am… Calm, cool and collected. Been quite sometime since I’ve even thought about it. But yeah. Had a really good year so far. Might not look like I’ve done a whole lot, but yer not lookin’ at it from my side. It’s been a year of growth for me. Probably
Whereas I had been stagnant for a few… Years. And soooooo angry. Where did all that go? I don’t know. But anger was counter-productive in the end. I used to say through gritted teeth that “anger was the only thing keeping me vertical!” Was it? Maybe at the time.
I’m pretty happy. Yes. There. I said it. Happy. I’m comfortable. In my own skin. Been a long time since I could even THINK that and not be lying to myself. Now I can say it. Out loud even. *laughs*
I laugh. A lot. At myself too.
And I’m optimistic about the what the future holds.
More adventures? Bring it.
Ahhhhm jus’ gettin’ sta-a-a-h-t-ed! <-- My Al Pacino imitation.
Been a year or thereabouts since I quit smoking. Quite the big deal that is. And grateful I am.
And I still have a lot of work to do. I still weigh too much and I'm not in very good shape. "Pear shaped" comes to mind *laughs*
But I'm still above ground, dammit! Thankful for that too.
** I used to love being up before everyone in the house. In ALL my previous houses. Get a different vibe from a place where your loved ones are upstairs sleeping. Used to love that first cup of coffee in the quiet.
Living alone, I wasn’t feeling that vibe at all. All of a sudden it’s come back in full force. I love sitting on my patio early, early in the morning. Steaming coffee in my mug. I love being up that early… Ha! Maybe I’m gettin’ old...
Be good to one another people!